Forgot to file my report yesterday

When you are a kid and have a holiday, your main activity is doing nothing. As an adult, that nothing turns into catching up with everything you could not for the life of you find time doing. Of course you can do those things on the weekend, but it is the weekend — a time where you want to relax because you are sick to your stomach scheduling chores.

When going to bed last night I realised I had not finished writing the Dokter’s Weekly Report. Which in turn means I also forgot to publish it.

A while back I did mention I was toying with the idea of putting the Dokter’s Weekly Report on the back-burner for a bit — now that I am back battling with academia again. By neglecting the report completely last night, I will take that as a sign to do so — ignore it for a bit until I have more time on my hands.

What I might do instead is to write a shorter version of the Dokter’s Weekly Report with no specific date, where I pick a certain article I write a longer comment to. Instead of picking several articles, and tweets, each week and adding short comments to them.

This is the beauty— not really —of being an adult. You suddenly have to— presumably —do a lot of things, based on the— faulty —logic that they have to be done. Or else something really bad will happen to you. Even of you do not know what that is or why.

Which is why I often find myself, even when trying to relax, that I am not really doing exactly that. The time where I would exclusively sit still, only listening to music, is extremely rare nowadays. Because if I am not working on a 2000-word academic essay, I am scrambling to finish a column — and if I am not doing either of those things, I am busy with tedious chores.

It does not surprise me that there is so much focus on how to be most effective with your tasks and so many articles talking about procrastination. What all these helpful guides and informative articles seem to ignore very graciously is the fact we as a society have created this delusion that doing nothing— taking a break longer than five minutes —is not an option anymore.

Got five minutes to spare? Then you must be procrastinating or not prioritising your schedule correctly. Because what you should do is to wake up in the morning, start working, have dinner, work a bit more if you can and then sleep — lather, rinse, repeat.

As if we are living in some kind of feudal system again, where you only exist for the purpose of working.

Kind of ironic, how most of us as teens longed for the day we become adults and could free ourselves from our parents — moving out to enjoy the freedoms we thought they had. Only to find out that you really are not that freer. Which might explain why some people become more cynical and disgruntled in their older days — as I have become.

Holidays should be by default double-length as an adult. If you have a week off, the first week is expected to be used to catch up on various adult crap, the second week is meant to be used to do absolutely nothing.

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Sleeping away Wednesday

The alarm went off around 8 am this Wednesday morning — no way in hell was I getting up that early. I decided to sleep through several pre-set alarms. Just before 10 pm I decided to force myself out of bed, even if I would have been able to sleep for another few hours.

I am not a morning person. It is hardwired in my brain, so do not try to change me. Nor am I willing to either. It is now almost 11 pm and I far more enjoy working in the late hours of the day — when it is cooler and no pesky sun around.

Spending 10 hours at academia really knocks the wind out of me. Even if I plan to get some minor writing out of the day, or reading, I often seem to just hover around. Not do anything particular special. Just loaf around, maybe do some housework, watch TV or sleep som more.

I think it was around 12 pm I decided to lie down on the sofa for a bit, just relax and watch YouTube — while checking Twitter and APN. Was enjoying some snus and suddenly I started to nod off a few times.

Fell asleep face-down on the sofa with a big prilla (snus) under my lip. Woke about an hour later with a bad taste in my mouth. As if I had taken a mouth-full of snus and chewed it for a while without spitting it out.

Yummy…

I guess I needed a day like this, where I do nothing at all. Letting my mind relax for a bit. No intense or educational reading. Only writing tolerable will happen on Twitter or ADN — maybe a late night ramble like this one.

Seems like I do not have enough time for this anymore. Being a lazy bastard — letting a grey matter rest for a bit.

Enjoying the music I am listening to right now. Been too long since I heard some good electro. Another past time that i difficult to enjoy. Just sitting still, not doing anything but listening.

Tomorrow I will be back in the trenches again. Heading to a concert, which I will most likely be writing a review about. Have to watch my alcohol intake tho, as I will be driving there. A beer every second hour or so — should be fine. As long as I have my snus all is good.